horoscope was right ''your feelings could be easily hurt during this time, and in retaliation, you may strike out verbally against anyone, and everyone, within shouting distance. You are likely to be irritable, moody and bad tempered so beware starting arguments just for the sake of it. You could also be somewhat accident-prone.''

one of the unluckiest days in my life.
first of all .. bankstown;childrens fest . my dad let me go for about 10mins / thats all =.= i swear thats cruel .. hmm but lets jst look forward to tmr ; moon fest :D
secondly. i came home today talking to the boy and he told me what he read and yeah . thats bad really bad =/
then my brother . my brother can be the nicest but he can also be the meanest. lately for about a few months now hes been a dickhead -.- annoying me and shit . jst last week he started to act all tough and shit . so he punched me ouuta nowhere . i ws fkn skipping peacefully and he comes along and full punches me and now i have this bruise on my shoulder that kills . going to school while carrying a bag makes kills even more >< well its improving i guess
well after that he was always bitchy to me =.= lol bitchy
and farout, today i was on the phone with my friend and suddenly he comes into the room and acts like a fucking retard. not freaking funny man
then i told him to stfu and then he threw a pillow at me ffs so i threw it back at him . then he threw it backe and shit ./ then suddenly stops so i think oh yeaah good. then like 5secs later i could feel him breathing o.o so i reached behind me not knowing that i slap his face. it was an accident that didnt even hurt --' so hes like wtf pulls out a fist once again and punches me right it the back, hard. god dammit im like in pain right now and so i went to my mum i hugged her and cried my eyes out . she was like whats wrong and i had trouble saying so all i said was that it was my brother. she was watching her movie so she wasnt really listening . she was like to me ; tell me or go away; man i couldnt say a thing, i was crying to much. so i walked away
she didnt care. yep
whatta family. sometimes i wish they were dead . seriously.
sigh lifes a pita.

hey hey hey . dear 'this boy'
fuck i feel really bad i hope you dont think a bitch . farout im really sorry
crying as i write this
wish i could make it up to you.. im pretty sure ill see you tmr so ill say sorry to you
fcuk i wish i could erase what i wrote before .. even if i did itll make no difference because you already read it . made everything worse :(
i know your lying about how its fine . cause its not.. how can you be fine ?!? its like the meanest thing ive ever said about someone :(
im not usually like this am i ? turning into a bitch ? i hope to god i wont turn into it full time

man i wish this could all go away

i miss you. but i cant so.. i dont miss you .. thats right i dont. i dont miss you at all heh . sigh
god dammit im so sorry.
even though im still hurt itll go away soon .. veryveryveryvery soon x)
lets hope that :)
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what have i become .. yep thats right a bitch.
if you read this .. forget it =.=
sinh loi anh .

nts;teresa its been 2months you have to get over it . cmon i know you can (pain in the ass)
even if it still hurts youll find a better person sooon so dw its okay <3

okay one last sorry to the boy . none of itts true so forget it yeah ? :( im sorry :'(